I'd clap for the single parents if I could muster up enough energy.

C. has been gone since Thursday; the same day that I was called to pick Lila up early from school because she had a fever. (Remember, up until that day our family had been sick for nearly 2 weeks.)

After visiting a new general doctor who didn't really know Lila's history, I came home and experienced a little ear emergency and our ENT saw us right away the next day. As it turns out, little Lila has micro-perforations on her ear drum. In the same ear that lost its' tube 5-months post tube surgery.

Mucho pain.
Mucho coughing.
Mucho fever.
Mucho meds.
Mucho talking. (MY CHILDREN NEVER STOP TALKING.)

Mama needs mucho sleep.

How do single parents of toddlers do it? I mean, really?

C. comes home Monday afternoon and I'll tell you what - I'm already looking forward to sleeping until 7:15 a.m. on Saturday. (That's now sleeping in. Sadly. Those kids are his.)

I truly think that parents of toddlers get a ridiculous amount of sleep. And by ridiculous, I mean, not enough.

An example night for me:

Go to bed at 11:00 p.m. (I can't got to bed any earlier. I just can't.)
2-3 a.m. - Lila wakes up coughing. Incessantly. Almost vomiting.
3 a.m. - More coughing from Lila.
4 a.m. - Vivi hears Lila coughing and wants to talk about it. (Of course she does.)
5 a.m. - Lila gets up to tell me she had a bad dream. Can she sleep with me?
5:35 a.m. - Vivi is up for the day; I tell her it's still night time and put her back in bed. She sleeps for 30 more minutes.
6:00 a.m. - Vivi is up, happy, "Good morning, Mommy!" and playing in her room, visiting me in my bed, playing in her room, visiting me in my bed...
6:45 a.m. - Lila's up.

At no point during that DAY-IN-DAY-OUT schedule do I get a solid amount of sleep. Someday? 7-8 CONSECUTIVE HOURS OF SLEEP?

This is normal, right? SOMEONE tell me that I am not the only one.

Thank you,
Signed
Klyee

(Yes, I'm so tired I typed my name wrong.)

My sweet, cotton-eared girl.
And this is how I feel.
Exhausted.


ADDENDUM:
The girls have been sleeping for a couple of hours and just now the door creaked open and Lila said, "Mommy? Mommy? I have to go potty, ok?"

After I was finishing helping her, my sweet baby girl melted in my arms and I carried her back to bed. I haven't carried her in my arms, sleeping, for a while.. and she's all arms and legs. She's getting so big. She's growing. Oh, this makes me so sad. My heart...

In a couple of years she won't be so dependent on me and I'm going to YEARN for these times. For the "Mommy? Mommy?"... For the, "I love you so much, you're my best friend."

So, all that I wrote up there? Authentic feelings. But at the end of the day, I know how fleeting this time is and I would NEVER, EVER change it. In fact, I wish I could slow time down and they'd stay my teeny Sweet Pickle and Silly Goose.

Sigh.

This whole "Mommy thing" is so cool.

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10 comments:

  1. You are not alone. A normal night for me is: Brady falls asleep between 10-10:30 (this after 2-3 hours of getting ready to go to sleep and everything that is involved). Between 1:30 and 2am, Brady is coming into my bed. He falls asleep and i put him back in his bed. 4am, the same. 5am he wants milk and won't go back to sleep until he gets it. Since I was 8 months, preggo I have only slept more than 4 hours at a time, maybe 3 times (that's 2 years). Last night Brady was sick and throwing up every 2 hours. Poor guy.
    My point is that I can relate.

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    1. Oh my, I empathize. :( I'm so sorry that Brady is sick, too. :( Awful. I hope he feels better soon and that by 2015 you get a good night's sleep.:)

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  2. Don't hate me, but I go to bed when my kids do at 8:00 pm (or 8:30). I sleep until 6:00 am or sometimes 7:00!! I get 10 hours almost every night. I swear it keeps me from aging~!!!

    I am so tired by 8:30 I can't stay awake.

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    1. WHAT? How in the world do you get anything done?! After the kids go to bed (between 7-7:30 p.m.) -- we eat dinner and decompress and get all the other stuff done.

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    2. I have a large gray streak in my hair (ok maybe 5 strands). It arrived about a month ago. I am aging quickly : )

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    3. I have a HEAD full of grey hair. Welcome to the club. :(

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  3. Oh Klyee, that is rough.

    And poor Lila!! I hope she feels better soon :(

    I hear ya on this. Half the week Terry leaves 15 minutes after I get home from work and doesn't comes home at 11pm. I start getting Henry ready for bed a little after 8 and sometimes it is an hour before he is alseep. UGH. And like you, even if I am tired I don't go to bed. I either need to eat something for dinner, clean dishes, and/or just UNWIND. I need ME time before I go to bed and do it all over again.

    And the coughing in the middle of the night, yep still have that....though your suggestion with the fan has helped!! Last night he woke up at 3:30am crying. But eventually put himself back to sleep. But still, my sleep was disrupted. And then up at 6am.

    I don't know how single parents do it either. It is tough with two parents.

    Someday we will get to sleep, right?! RIGHT?!!

    If I could have any gift it would be a hotel room for just ONE night....I would sleep nearly the entire time or take a bath/shower without a kid peaking in and then have a meal without a kid throwing food on the floor. Just one night :)

    (Hope you get sleep tonight and hope Lila feels better!)

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  4. You are not alone. You don't even want to know what my evenings look like. Every night. :-/

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    1. Truth? I feel for you SO much. Truly.

      HUG.

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  5. Hoping for wellness in your house! and your thoughts on carrying 'all arms and legs" struck a chord...mine just turned 12 and I still just about cry each night after my girl comes in for her "good night snuggle" before she disappears into her room...because I know that one of these nights soon, it's going to be the last time...and I get the sads...

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