Caffeine and me. A complicated duo.

4/07/2011 04:08:00 AM

I don't drink coffee. I've always wanted to be cool enough to enjoy it, but I don't.

I'm intimidated by ordering at Starbucks and can count on ONE hand how many times I've done so. My order usually is dictated to someone else and goes like this, "Um... I don't know... I'll have a green tea or something... just no coffee." (I'm a tea person.)

See? I'm not cool.

But I will gladly admit that coffee beans smell divine.

Moving on to the point of this post:

I'll tell you what I do like: good 'ole fashioned coca-cola classic.

I like the taste. I prefer it from a can. (Classy.)  It must be ice cold. And it must never be caffeine-free.

And nope, I don't drink the unleaded alternative diet version. No diet coke or coca-light in Mexico. I like the real deal. If I'm going down, I want to go down drinking the REAL, nasty deal, not aspartame.

So this coke obsession? It rules me.

(If "ruling me" means I drink ONE full-can or ONE mini-can of coke per day. NEVER more than that. EVER.)

Here I am. Trying to lose baby weight. I'm college educated. I know and understand that coke is not good for me. I understand a healthy diet. I work out and drink LITERS of water each day. (Breastfeeding.)

I even try a different angle and attempt to convince myself that I'm letting the MAN win. I'm letting him poison my body... willingly. I'm marching into the FIRE of kidney damage.

None of this matters: I can't quit the coke.

Ok, it's not that I can't.

Here's the real deal. It's what we learn on every addiction show, from Intervention to Hoarders: I don't want to quit.

I don't.

I like it.

I'm not willing to let go.

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So the point of this post? Perhaps it's a confession, or maybe I'm crying out for someone to say, "It's ok!" or, "Me too!"

I'm not sure... but the bottom line? I shall continue to struggle. And feel guilty. And love coke.

Note: I haven't always been like this. This is a recent thing for me. I've gone significant periods of time sans pop (soda). I just, well... I just like coke.

So, right now my current rule is that I can't have a coke if I had one the day before. :) So what does this mean?

No coke for me today.

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17 comments:

  1. Ha! I could have written this post! It's just sooooo good.

    I used to drink (gasp) multiple, okay 3, cans of Coke a day when I worked full-time. My company provided pop and it was always there, calling my name, ice cold from the fridge. I HAD to have it. When I got pregnant with S, I felt bad having it; so I stopped. I missed it so much! While I still LOVE it, I only have it when out to dinner. I refuse to buy it and keep in our house or I'd go back to multiple cans a day. I have a problem. ;)

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  2. ...and it KILLS me every time we pass a McDonald's because they have the BEST fountain Coke. The best. Fat straw and all.

    Okay, I'm done now. ;)

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  3. I also share your addiction. I've been trying to drink more tea but it's just not the same. I wish I was a water drinker but I'm terrible about it.

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  4. Complicated, indeed. I would do just about anything for some Starbucks or a diet Coke. Although caffeine makes me seriously jittery - as in, shakinghandscan'tsitstillwhatwasItryingtodolast, so I try pretty hard to stress 'decaf' when I'm ordering. And really, what DOES McDonald's put in their Coke, because it absolutely tastes better than anywhere else.

    Nope. It's not just you. I think you're doing pretty well if you have the willpower to limit yourself to every other day :)

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  5. Ha! This happens to me but with bread and any food that involves flour... I have an addiction... can't help, don't want to quit it, BUT if I eat a ton of cookies, cake or bread today... NADA for me manana. You are NOT alone! =)

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  6. You'd be aghast at the amount of Coke I drink. It's baaaaad but I love it so. I love, love, love it.

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  7. Kylee, it's not like you're doing meth. It's OK. Fo' real.

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  8. My addiction is Diet A&W cream soda. And I really really want to quit because it has aspertame. AND I JUST CAN'T DO IT!!!! Its my solice in the midst of my day. I don't get any quiet time away from kids, so its like my one satisfaction. I only drink 1 a day, but still. Sigh.

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  9. Oh, don't be hard on yourself my friend! I think one can of pop a day is not a big deal AT ALL....you only live once and you might as well have a some indulgences in life that make you happy! Especially when you live an otherwise healthy life.

    We ALL have our little indulgences....a can of pop, coffee, afternoon candy. None of which are absolutely horrible for us and when regulated and had within reason I think are perfectly fine! Who wants to be healthy ALL the time?!

    Mine is coffee....and while I gave it up for the piglet I cannot WAIT to have a big cup of it again! It makes me happy :)

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  10. I feel your pain....I was up to a 2 liter of Diet Coke a day! I quit for Lent (good Catholic girl that I am..lol) and I have to tell you I feel so much "cleaner" for a lack of a better word. Aspartame scares me...thinking about how much I put in my body all these years scares me even more. I now use Stevia and can't really tell the difference in taste, but feel like I can sleep at night :)

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  11. Since trying to conceive (since last June) I quit coffee (I actually quit in September. I LOVE Starbucks iced coffee with milk. YUM.

    see my obsession here http://racheldee32.blogspot.com/2010/09/coffee.html

    Now that I am prego, I am still not drinking coffee, but I am now enjoying a pepsi. One a day (or less). I know that it is terrible for me and it will probably rot my teeth at best, but it's the one thing I look forward to. (I also quit my red wine obsession too). So I am probably worse than you...drinking pepsi while prego. I just can't quit everything...

    I tried the tea thing and to be honest when I was drinking green tea, I conceived. I'm convinced it helped. but I haven't really had any since.

    I don't do drugs, I don't smoke, I'm not drinking alcohol or coffee...so that is good, right?

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  12. ...and I LOVE it from the can...iced cold.

    But no ice please, unless I am at a restaurant and it's in a glass.

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  13. this post is making my mouth water. pop is awesome. coke is awesome. it's all so so good! i totally agree with snugglebugs about McDonald's coke. it's fantastic.

    i gave up pop for lent and hate every second of it. but, i have found that drinking different kinds of carbonated water helps with that intense craving. it by no means replaces pop BUT it takes the edge off for me. I love mixing seltzer water (no calories, no sodium)over ice with Pure Fitness by Crystal Light which is aspartame free! it's purty good.

    it sounds like many people share the addiction, and like Sarah W said, it's not meth....

    -Sal

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  14. My caffine addiction... MONSTER! I'm talking the "BFC" Monster at the gas station.

    ...but I ONLY do the Lo-Carb or Zero kind.

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  15. i agree with sarah w -- you're not doing meth or smoking crack. if you start some such thing, we will have an intervention. in the meantime, i say enjoy the damn coke. it's tasty, makes you happy, and feels like a treat. i think if we're honest, we ALL have at least one vice like that, and when you're leading an otherwise healthy lifestyle, i say do it. party like it's 1999. :)

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  16. My sweet, sweet lover of an addiction is Diet Mt. Dew.

    Hi, my name is Lurker and I am a Diet Mt. Dew addict.

    I hang my head in shame to admit that I drink a minimum of 3 cans a day....

    Thank the Gods that they have a caffiene free version for when I was pregnant! still...the shame...

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  17. My pop addiction is Dr. Pepper. And the Chik Fil a fountain is the best not out of the can or bottle.. you are not alone!!!

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